Does she still exist...yeah, she does

I lie awake thinking about her...is that creepy, thinking about someone you know you can't have? I miss her so much, it just felt weird for the longest time to think I'd never see her ever again, but then that one moment I did see her, it was incredible, it felt like nothing changed...but well everything has changed. We've grown up, grown apart more then likely, but that doesn't make any difference right? There's still that one in a million shot that maybe some crazy day in the future I may be able to sit across the table from her and smile and just know that at that moment that if the world ended that'd be "a" OK, because for a second time in my life, it would all be bliss.